I know that God is there for me.
All i've to do is open myself to Him.
spoke at : 8:45:00 PM
I'm sorry but everything is getting too much.
A fuss out of anything in fact everything.
Maybe it's really time to make a decision.
To stay or not.
I'm sorry to say that i don like ppl talking abt me.
I'm liddat.
Parents don't think abt how you feel.
Friends just blabber everything out.
I really think that, I don't have a soul mate.
Not even one.
I'm sorry to say that. But it's a fact.
I just wan to keep it.
I dont wan pity,
I dont wan advise!
STOP IT!
Maybe it's really time to leave.
I don think there's any church i can go to. spoke at : 11:03:00 PM
Looking through my previous post,
I would say it's lots of things.
The happiness, the sadness, the tears.
Friendship, kinship, relationship problem.
Doubts and questions.
Changing of perspective.
People who makes me happy and loved.
People who mkaes me cry and sad.
Post talking abt my life
to now, How i feel.
I wont say that i grow up alot.
In fact, I feel terrible now.
But at least i know i went through lots of things.
Past years, I really start to understand more, doubt more.
The reality of society, the faith in everything.
Everything had changed.
Specifically, my character, my world.
STuck in a terrible situation now.
I would say it's disgusting.
LOst of smile, the innocent, the naive mind.
Everything has changed.
LingHui is not LingHui anymore.
But she is LingHui...
Read this: 21 Aug 2007
Time...
It will not wait,
It will not stop.
It will not care,
It will not know.
It will not do anything for anyone.
It just FLY.
It fly fast, In tremondous speed.
So fast that you could not,
So fast that you could not realise.
It fly pass you, but you do not know.
Everything is like so fast..
End of year in 1months plus time
O lvl in 1 year time.
Everything seems so fast..
When we realise it, It's too late.
O lvl is not only in 1 years time,
But in 176 days.
Everything pass so quickly.
All this time.
Looking for a soul mate.
I don't know if i found one.
I don't know what i'm looking for.
I feel like going somewhere else instead of staying here.
Father, Bring me home will you?
spoke at : 7:01:00 PM
Not in good mood at all.
Being very slack.
Feels guilty yet nothing done.
*SLAP!
LingHui! WAKE UP!
spoke at : 11:19:00 PM
Come on. Stop self-contradicting!
spoke at : 9:53:00 PM
Out of 7 days.
The only 2 days that i can really enjoy
are saturday and sunday.
Can't you just let me enjoy with no worries?
Monday, school ends at 230. English remedial
until 4 plus 5. Reach home, rest, slack and homework.
Tuesday, school ends at 3. Maths and Chinese remedial
until 530. Reach home, rest, slack and homework.
Wednesday, school ends at 3. Science [chem/bio]
430 until 5 plus. Reach home, rest, Maths tution
830 to 10. Reach home, rest, sleep.
Thursday, school ends at 3. Social studies and literature
remedial until 5 plus. Reach home, rest,
Chemistry tution 830 to 10. Reach home, rest, sleep.
Friday, schoold ends at 12 or 1. Sometime chemistry remedial
till 1 plus 2. Study in school. REach home, rest, English tution
830 to 10. Reach home, slack, sleep.
Saturday, plans to study from 9 to 230. Go church, CG till 530.
Nights, Have fun.
Sunday, stay in church till 6 plus. STudy and more.
Nights, dinner.
Why can't i just enjoy having 2 nights out?!
I'm not a robot!
Can't i just have peace even spending time with my friends?
WHY!
spoke at : 10:19:00 PM
The Strength of God is the Strength that push us On.
spoke at : 10:15:00 PM
spoke at : 6:20:00 PM
Psalm 461 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the
earth give way
and the mountains falls into the heart
of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their
surging.
Selah4 There is a river whose streams make
glad the city of God,
the holy place where he Most High
dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The Lost Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah8 Come and see the works of the Lord,
the desolations he has brought on the
earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the ends of
the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the
spear,
he burns the shields with fire.
10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."
11 The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
SelahOur God is like a river.
Flowing eternally.
We are like the substance in the river.
We are on our way to a place.
The Lord is with us in the water.
'It's not just that God gives us plentiful resources in
His river, but He's right there giving us hope and strength,
guiding us, assisting us, making His life known through what
we do and say. It's overwhelming to consider that we are part
of God's flow in the world where we live. We are not in a
stagnate pool but in moving waters, because God and all of
His resources are with us.' 'He wants to use you to give life
to others' -Our journey April 3 2008
Our journey do help me in QT. haha =D
spoke at : 11:31:00 PM
My previous post is just expressing myself.
No shooting of anyone.
Just totally releasing stress through blog =D
No worries man!
spoke at : 10:14:00 PM
One day, you and i are going into enter this society, this world.
We are just robot mammals, running in a rat race.
You cannot stop in the rat race or else others will catch up.
You cannot only stop when you die.
So what's the big deal of being an 'A' student?
In reality fact, there is alot of 'A' students in the society.
Being an 'A' student is no big deal.
You'll face tremendous stress, sarcastic comments for mates.
What's the point? We didn't even take O lvl.
How can you place judgements that i'm an 'A' student
just because i excelled in school?
Not as in my school is a very good school.
It's just an average or i would say lousy school in Academic.
It's not like your can predict the future that my Os result
is going to be like all As.
It's not like i'm able to maintain my standard.
What if i breakdowns and flunk my Os?
What if i had a car accident and just die?
What if i am so sick that i couldn't take my Os?
Can you really think before you say anything?
I am not smart i must admit.
But neither i am dumb.
Just buck up and leave everything to your whatever God can?
Even if i manage to get As in my studies,
that doesnt mean i have a very good life.
Life doesnt revolves around your qualifications itself.
But your EQ is important too!
My EQ, i must admit is pretty awful.
I offend people often, and people feels that i totally Nonsensical.
I am, in fact, but not everytime.
I know i am not loveable to people.
I am totally self-Conscious.
I know most of my weakness.
Crazy, does not make sense most of the time, people dont
understand me and need a 'DECODER', and irritating to some people.
But i really DONT NEED A DECODER!
Can your just stop all the DECODER crap.
If i really have a DECODER, how would i learn to even speak
words that your understand?
How can i make things perfect when i cannot practice?
Just stop all the things can.
I'm really tired of being scolded all the time.
I'm really tired of all the crap.
Give me a break, I need FRESH AIR.
spoke at : 9:43:00 PM
