Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Maybe i am just to high D.
I don't like to drag things, i don't like last min stuff.
This cause me to make wrong desicions.
BUt..My sense of ugency is some how gone.
NOthing when right for the passed week and this week.
Maybe i just can't do anything right.
My studies, my cca, my ministry and my sports.
All my things and ability deprove so much.
Why aren't i trying to catch up.. Even if i did.
Why izzit so slow? What's wrong with you, linghui.
This questions is pondering me for a long time.
Maybe i just couldn't do anything right.
Maybe i am just expecting to high?
Feel like i have lost touch with God for so long.
He is there i know, But what is stopping me to go to him?
There is a wall i created myself. but i dono wad it is make of.
What should i do? NOthing? Stone?
Urgency is gone, passion is lost.
Now how do i find it back?

Had Maths and Chem today..
Still okay for maths. Hope can pass.
As for Chemistry, did some last min revise and hope to pass too.
Tomoro having biology. Hope i wont fall anymore.
Hope i can stand firm.
Hope i find my foundation once again.

Stressed out by the begining of the year.
Read this paragraph from the "Seperated from self, Joined the chist"
On sunday, 25 of february 2007.
Title: Tears of love.
paragraph 3. Thanks be to God who created tears, because through them we can let our inner emotions flow freely. And whenever we come before the throne of mercy feeling helpless, God grants us His promise and comfort, reviving our strenght, touching and changing our lives.
It struck me. But dono how. It touches me, But dono why.
God is there whenever you need him. He never forget nor forsake.
We are the one who do so..

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